Chapter 2: Whether You Fall
Author’s Note: Sorry guys, I’m having some real writer’s block. Therefore, I am going to skip ahead a bit, but I’ll make sure to flashback to help bridge the gaps. This chapter (like the rest of the season to come) will jump ahead three months to the beginning of the school year and yes, Bay has broken up with Emmett. Break up scene will one of the aforementioned flashbacks.
“Whether you fall, means nothing at all. It’s whether you get up, it’s whether you get up.”-Tracy Bonham
It had been three months, somewhat close to ninety days, 2160 hours and 5400 seconds since Emmett Bledsoe’s heart had been broken by one Bay Kennish. There had been about a thousand text messages sent, five hundred e-mails, a couple dozen bouquets of flowers, his own attempt of axe boy so axe girl could have a companion and still, the girl remained steadfast. She was done and he got it, he did.
He betrayed her.
But what he couldn’t understand was that her heart was broken too, so wouldn’t it be better to have two broken hearts trying to mend rather than two broken hearts remaining broken?
“It’s a lot more fun being angry together than alone.”
She had told him that once before and as always, Bay was right. As it turned out, she was right about mostly everything and he was just wrong. If he could go back to that day, that fateful day, and undo it all, he would. He would have walked away from that ice machine or he wouldn’t have yelled at Bay. He definitely wouldn’t have slept with Simone. He wouldn’t have lost Bay. But he did lose Bay, and here he was, alone, on the first day of his junior year of high school and normally he’d be sitting at a table with Daphne talking about something stupid, but even Daphne wanted nothing to do with him. Well, that wasn’t completely true.
She wasn’t ignoring him, but their time spent together had been sporadic to say the least.
He wondered how the hell he could have been surrounded by so many people and yet feel so completely and utterly alone. He wanted to cry, but he had done enough of that this summer. If this were a few months ago, say May, he’d be texting Bay, who even though didn’t have the same lunch period as he did and should have been paying attention in class always texted him back. She always was there. Why couldn’t he have just seen that? Why did he fuck up so bad?
He shouldn’t do this.
“It’ll just make things harder, Emmett!” said his conscience, but he couldn’t help it. He needed to pretend that Bay was still there, even if that sounded crazy.
He scrolled through his message history and read through each message.
“Hey beautiful. Just thinking of you. –E”
“Hey! I’m so bored. I hate pre-cal :( -B”
“I’m sorry. I’m pretty good at math. I could help you. Want to come over and study? ;-) E”
“Hehe. I saw that wink. Do you mean study or “study?” And you’re taking trig! How could you help me? –B”
“I have my ways :) –E”
“I bet. Shoot. Gotta go, I love you –B”
“Okay. I love you, too. –E”
There were a few more, including one a particular one where she talked about some guy hitting on her and Emmett wanted to come down and kick his ass, or at least show him that she was taken. But she wasn’t taken.
He was so invested in the ghosts of Bay past that he didn’t even see Daphne and Travis, ugh, he hated that guy, come over to his table.
He was happy that Daphne was sitting with him and he guessed trying to make peace, but it didn’t help his situation. In fact, it just made him more sad. He wanted to go back to the days when Daphne was his best friend and Bay was his girlfriend, but it was clear to see that that wasn’t happening, and if Bay had her way it would be forever.
"How are you?" Daphne asked gently.
"I’m great. About to join the pep team." He knew he was being a jerk, but really, what did she expect? He lost the love of his life. Yes, he knew people would think he was being dramatic, but he wasn’t. Bay really was the love of his life. He didn’t want anybody else. Ever. He just wanted Bay.
Daphne sighed and tried again.
"I know things are tough for you now but –
"No, you don’t. You don’t know. You don’t know anything. You come here after a whole summer of barely talking to me and you want to play nice? You really want to know how I am? I am devastated!”
Daphne looked defeated.
"Fine. Forget I even tried," and with that she got up and left, but for some reason Travis stayed. He stayed and stared at Emmett.
Emmett rolled his eyes at Daphne’s new whatever the hell he was. Best friend? Boyfriend? Wilke replacement? Whatever.
Travis just smirked.
Emmett was not in the mood for this douchebag, that was for sure.
"You know, I wouldn’t get too comfortable."
"Oh? What is that supposed to mean."
"With Daphne. It’s clear she’s just hanging out with you because she’s mad at me, but Daphne and I are best friends and we’re just going through a rough patch. She’ll come around and once she does, she’ll drop you. Or she won’t because she feels sorry for you." Emmett had to admit it felt good to get rid of some of his anger, even though Travis didn’t deserve it. But what pissed him off more is that Travis didn’t even look upset. He actually looked amused.
"Hmm, well maybe that will work out in my favor in other ways."
Emmett shook his head.
"What are you talking about?"
"Well, if Daphne is only hanging out with me because she’s mad at you, maybe Bay would hang out with me too." Emmett’s blood started to boil at the mention of Bay. Fuck Travis. Who did he think he was?
"You don’t even know Bay.”
"I’ve seen enough of her. You know, I’ve hung around the house a lot this summer. And the other day Bay came into the car wash to see John. You are a real idiot, you know that right? I mean, a hearing girl willing to sign, not to mention she’s gorgeous and funny," and then he paused, "and she has a really nice ass."
With that, Emmett nearly jumped over to the other side of the table.
"Listen, you want to hang out with Daphne and be her new best friend, fine. Go right ahead. Go bask in the glory of it, but you stay the hell away from Bay or you and I are going to have a problem. You got that?”
Travis started laughing hysterically.
"You think this is funny? I love that girl okay? We may not be together now, but I’m warning you, Travis, don’t go there.”
Finally Travis got himself together.
"Dude, I’m not interested in Bay, okay? You just seem so serious. I mean, c’mon. But for future reference, I don’t think you have anything to say about who Bay does or doesn’t date. I guess that’s what you get for jumping into bed with someone who isn’t your girlfriend,” Travis said, tapping Emmett on the shoulder and walking away.
What just happened? The truth is, Emmett didn’t even think about the possibility that Bay would date another guy and that just made him want to die.
Emmett Bledsoe had a broken heart and he wondered if it would ever be whole again.